We got up in the wee early hours on Tuesday morning to feed Jacky and Nevaeh for one last time before buckling them up in the van and taking them to the airport. They were bleary-eyed and slightly bewildered that we had woken them up, but in keeping with their character, they were troupers and took everything in stride.
Seth and Ollie then spent the morning at Mimi and Momo's and Jon was off at work. I don't think I've been alone and awake for more than 2 hours in a long time. It felt odd, but was also nice. So what did I do with myself? I cleaned of course. It was the reckless sort of cleaning, too. The kind where I didn't even bother putting the outlet covers back on after vacuuming. :)
And then after I picked up Seth and Ollie after lunch, and a minor miracle happened and both boys voluntarily napped. Well, I'm not sure what Seth did. Later he told me he rested and practiced whistling. All I know is that he was in his room for almost 2 hours with a closed door, so the details seem moot. I laid on my bed and read a book. It felt really odd, but was also really nice.
We miss our buddies, pray for them and think of them lots. Things also feel really peaceful. We loved those sweet kids, and would have been happy to love them as ours forever, but that just didn't happen. And we don't feel mad or bitter, just a sadness with a great peace about the whole situation. People have asked if we were angry at CPS for taking them, or making this decision. Honestly, no, we have not. Mostly I've had to pray for forgiveness at being mad at other Christians; why would everyone not choose to help those who can't help themselves?
We had a wonderful last weekend with Jack and Nevaeh. Grandma and Grandpa drove down from Missouri and stayed for a 3 or 4 days. They were supposed to come earlier in the year, but plans changed, and I'm so glad they did because they were a wonderful blessing in what could have been a pretty hard or sad weekend. We had nice weather and played outside lots, celebrated Nevaeh and her birth, and generally just loved and enjoyed each other.
Pictures coming soon!
Seth and Ollie then spent the morning at Mimi and Momo's and Jon was off at work. I don't think I've been alone and awake for more than 2 hours in a long time. It felt odd, but was also nice. So what did I do with myself? I cleaned of course. It was the reckless sort of cleaning, too. The kind where I didn't even bother putting the outlet covers back on after vacuuming. :)
And then after I picked up Seth and Ollie after lunch, and a minor miracle happened and both boys voluntarily napped. Well, I'm not sure what Seth did. Later he told me he rested and practiced whistling. All I know is that he was in his room for almost 2 hours with a closed door, so the details seem moot. I laid on my bed and read a book. It felt really odd, but was also really nice.
We miss our buddies, pray for them and think of them lots. Things also feel really peaceful. We loved those sweet kids, and would have been happy to love them as ours forever, but that just didn't happen. And we don't feel mad or bitter, just a sadness with a great peace about the whole situation. People have asked if we were angry at CPS for taking them, or making this decision. Honestly, no, we have not. Mostly I've had to pray for forgiveness at being mad at other Christians; why would everyone not choose to help those who can't help themselves?
We had a wonderful last weekend with Jack and Nevaeh. Grandma and Grandpa drove down from Missouri and stayed for a 3 or 4 days. They were supposed to come earlier in the year, but plans changed, and I'm so glad they did because they were a wonderful blessing in what could have been a pretty hard or sad weekend. We had nice weather and played outside lots, celebrated Nevaeh and her birth, and generally just loved and enjoyed each other.
Pictures coming soon!
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